This has by far been my most pessimistic new years eve in a long time. Actually, I have been blank the whole holiday when I think of it. And for at least 50% of the year.
I spent the evening almost alone (meaning I was alone in the room, but not in the house) wallowing in [...]
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New Years Eve
Posted in Life, Personal on December 31, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
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Posted in Life, Personal on December 15, 2007 | 2 Comments »
Apparently you have to cry, show your emotion, to make her understand. Telling her over and over again has not done the trick. I do not like that. And I definitely do not like what she said afterwards. I finally have it. I have it, and her opinion is to rip it all away. She [...]
Meaningless Words
Posted in Personal, Poetry, Thoughts, Writing on February 4, 2007 | 2 Comments »
I wrote this yesterday when I was feeling pretty down
I don’t know if this is a fall-back
It could be
It might be
Whatever it is, it can’t be good
I feel sad
It could be voluntarily
However this time, I don’t think so
Sadness makes me think
I don’t know about what
I just think
About everything
Type in meaningless words
On the computer screen that [...]
Frustrating
Posted in Personal on January 30, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
I often have trouble sleeping at night because of my thoughts. My mind is on think-mode all the time. In some cases, that would be good. Maybe even great. In my case, it is annoying and probably unhealthy.
These thoughts I have, translate into imaginations and daydreams. Most often, I see myself as a grown woman [...]
Why I don’t belong
Posted in Personal, Photography on January 26, 2007 | 1 Comment »
In gym class today I saw exactly why I don’t fit in with the people around here. I am too different. While they were all yelling, screaming, laughing.. I stood there, as an ice block, not saying a word. I was thinking about myself. Selfish? Maybe… Depression makes you selfish. I am not depressed no [...]
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